...but in a good way. I was going to try and make a "Textimonial" but outside factors in my life have prevented me from doing so. Besides, I believe my unique perspective might not have actually helped our cause. After 14 years, I didn't need to hurt Tex's return. Alright let me explain.
Tex ruined my life. Had I have not played Under a Killing Moon and Pandora Directive, it would not have given me that initial spark to pursue a life as an independent filmmaker. When I first saw those games I thought "I can do that!" Granted I was a cocky teenager that didn't know $#it about $#it but it got me started on this path. Tex coincided with a Media English class that I was taking at the time and I discovered that I was quite good at single camera productions. Top of my class in fact, when I decided to show up anyway. That just added fire to the cockiness. After high school I pursued my original passion of Fine Arts at the request of my parents only to discover that I no longer had passion for fine arts. My heart led toward the media arts and I have been pursuing that ever since.
This journey has led me through many tries at college in an attempt to find what I wanted in life. It wasn't until I was in college back in 1998 when I finally narrowed down my focus. Coincidentally my good buddy Tex also had a new game. I remember buying that game with the funds from my food balance just so I could play it. I could not afford a computer powerful enough to run that damned game so I had to secretly install it on the college's network just to play the game on evenings and weekends. All the while hiding every trace of it from the computer techs who would delete it and ban me from the computer room that I had access too. I have to admit that Pandora was my favorite game but it was Overseer that I had the most exciting experience playing. And they ended the damned thing on a cliffhanger.
Since that time it's taken me years to figure out what I wanted in life and procure all the things that I needed to make it all happen. Money has always been the one thing preventing me from progressing as quickly as possible as I have been doing everything myself. As of this writing it is a particularly bad time for me right now as well. But if things go according to plan this will be the final time that things go this badly. I've recently lost my basic survival job, the one that helps keep a roof over my head and my belly filled. I knew this time was coming for a while and sensed it coming a long ways away. Luckily I planned ahead and bought myself some time to find new work, but until that time I am in basic survival/starvation mode. Why am I telling you this? There is a simple reason.
I have donated $100 to Tex's Kickstarter fund. Truthfully I cannot afford to pay that much. Not really. I physically have the money now but I could easily use that money to help myself buy some food or fix my car that's broke down a year and a half ago. I HAVE to give Tex that money. I owe it to him. This journey has been long and hard and I can't help but I feel I've walked this path with Tex. The mere fact that Tex can come back after so long, his campaign represents a symbol that I can and will come back too. That $100 might help me out in the short term but Tex needs it more than I do. His life depends on it. And though I cannot afford to give it I am willingly donating it to get Tex back, I will survive without it. I always do. And though it is only a measly $100, I just wanted them to know the true value of that $100. It may not make a dent in the over all game budget but I can safely say that I helped out in the best way that I could. I owe it to Tex for setting me on this path. Yeah it's been a real rough ride, but I would not have changed it for the world. This is my way of saying thanks to the guys that helped me find my way in life. Now I just have to live up to it.
The other reason I am telling any of you on here any of this is that I am going to be going away for a while. I know that I don't post as much as I used to anymore but I do still visit here frequently to see what is going on. Throughout this journey I have kept several online friends on here and have kept many of you in the loop as things progressed. From the time that I lived in my car, to the time that I lost my home, the Tex message board has always been here. You guys were always there to cheer me on and give me your best wishes in times of need. I just want to thank all of you for that. There is a dark cloud looming over this message but I promise you that it will clear up soon. Although I have lost my job, it doesn't mean that I have stopped what I have been doing all of this time. Unfortunately the things that I do do not pay me a cent but all of that will be changing soon. I cannot report to you anything that I have been doing at this time but I just want you to know that I will be launching something in July and that it has taken me 7 years (13 if you count when I got the idea back in 1999) to get to this point. I am finally ready to start producing all the things that I had in the pipeline for many years. Finally I will have something that I can actually report on to my online friends and shed some light on all the things that I have been doing through these years. But unfortunately . . . there is still a wait ahead. So to make sure that things progress I will be going away for a while. Consider it motivation. But when I return I promise I will be bringing a great many things to share. So in the meantime, take care everyone, see you soon and LONG LIVE TEX MURPHY!!
-Electon Stu-
Tex ruined my life. Had I have not played Under a Killing Moon and Pandora Directive, it would not have given me that initial spark to pursue a life as an independent filmmaker. When I first saw those games I thought "I can do that!" Granted I was a cocky teenager that didn't know $#it about $#it but it got me started on this path. Tex coincided with a Media English class that I was taking at the time and I discovered that I was quite good at single camera productions. Top of my class in fact, when I decided to show up anyway. That just added fire to the cockiness. After high school I pursued my original passion of Fine Arts at the request of my parents only to discover that I no longer had passion for fine arts. My heart led toward the media arts and I have been pursuing that ever since.
This journey has led me through many tries at college in an attempt to find what I wanted in life. It wasn't until I was in college back in 1998 when I finally narrowed down my focus. Coincidentally my good buddy Tex also had a new game. I remember buying that game with the funds from my food balance just so I could play it. I could not afford a computer powerful enough to run that damned game so I had to secretly install it on the college's network just to play the game on evenings and weekends. All the while hiding every trace of it from the computer techs who would delete it and ban me from the computer room that I had access too. I have to admit that Pandora was my favorite game but it was Overseer that I had the most exciting experience playing. And they ended the damned thing on a cliffhanger.
Since that time it's taken me years to figure out what I wanted in life and procure all the things that I needed to make it all happen. Money has always been the one thing preventing me from progressing as quickly as possible as I have been doing everything myself. As of this writing it is a particularly bad time for me right now as well. But if things go according to plan this will be the final time that things go this badly. I've recently lost my basic survival job, the one that helps keep a roof over my head and my belly filled. I knew this time was coming for a while and sensed it coming a long ways away. Luckily I planned ahead and bought myself some time to find new work, but until that time I am in basic survival/starvation mode. Why am I telling you this? There is a simple reason.
I have donated $100 to Tex's Kickstarter fund. Truthfully I cannot afford to pay that much. Not really. I physically have the money now but I could easily use that money to help myself buy some food or fix my car that's broke down a year and a half ago. I HAVE to give Tex that money. I owe it to him. This journey has been long and hard and I can't help but I feel I've walked this path with Tex. The mere fact that Tex can come back after so long, his campaign represents a symbol that I can and will come back too. That $100 might help me out in the short term but Tex needs it more than I do. His life depends on it. And though I cannot afford to give it I am willingly donating it to get Tex back, I will survive without it. I always do. And though it is only a measly $100, I just wanted them to know the true value of that $100. It may not make a dent in the over all game budget but I can safely say that I helped out in the best way that I could. I owe it to Tex for setting me on this path. Yeah it's been a real rough ride, but I would not have changed it for the world. This is my way of saying thanks to the guys that helped me find my way in life. Now I just have to live up to it.
The other reason I am telling any of you on here any of this is that I am going to be going away for a while. I know that I don't post as much as I used to anymore but I do still visit here frequently to see what is going on. Throughout this journey I have kept several online friends on here and have kept many of you in the loop as things progressed. From the time that I lived in my car, to the time that I lost my home, the Tex message board has always been here. You guys were always there to cheer me on and give me your best wishes in times of need. I just want to thank all of you for that. There is a dark cloud looming over this message but I promise you that it will clear up soon. Although I have lost my job, it doesn't mean that I have stopped what I have been doing all of this time. Unfortunately the things that I do do not pay me a cent but all of that will be changing soon. I cannot report to you anything that I have been doing at this time but I just want you to know that I will be launching something in July and that it has taken me 7 years (13 if you count when I got the idea back in 1999) to get to this point. I am finally ready to start producing all the things that I had in the pipeline for many years. Finally I will have something that I can actually report on to my online friends and shed some light on all the things that I have been doing through these years. But unfortunately . . . there is still a wait ahead. So to make sure that things progress I will be going away for a while. Consider it motivation. But when I return I promise I will be bringing a great many things to share. So in the meantime, take care everyone, see you soon and LONG LIVE TEX MURPHY!!
-Electon Stu-
Stu! It's both delightful and frankly frightening to see you here for one strange reason!
About an hour ago I was discussing with a friend how painful it can be at times to be held back by fear when it comes to pursuing happiness, including the fear of having to live in one's car when necessary, and how regretful it can get at times for those such as us who always give up right about when the time comes for this one last painful push to pull through. At that precise moment, I had a thought for you.
I'm glad to see you. Now get out of my head!
About an hour ago I was discussing with a friend how painful it can be at times to be held back by fear when it comes to pursuing happiness, including the fear of having to live in one's car when necessary, and how regretful it can get at times for those such as us who always give up right about when the time comes for this one last painful push to pull through. At that precise moment, I had a thought for you.
I'm glad to see you. Now get out of my head!
Part-Time Nomad
Stu, great to hear from you... Sorry to hear that things are bumpy again though... Hopefully you kick it in the rear and start climbing again... Looking forward to whatever it is you are working on... You talk about it with such passion, I can't imagine it being anything but something great... Good luck in your journey my friend... May the sun shine bright for you...
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Hi Stu,
thanks for dropping us a line and keeping us up to date. Life does seem like quite the roller-coaster for you, but if it's party of perusing a dream, I hold nothing but the greatest respect for you and what you are setting out to achieve. Stay in that head space and you are sure to succeed.
Take care buddy, and can't wait to see what new developments are in the pipeline for you!
-Cub. =o)
thanks for dropping us a line and keeping us up to date. Life does seem like quite the roller-coaster for you, but if it's party of perusing a dream, I hold nothing but the greatest respect for you and what you are setting out to achieve. Stay in that head space and you are sure to succeed.
Take care buddy, and can't wait to see what new developments are in the pipeline for you!
-Cub. =o)
Always a pleasure, Stu! Looking forward to seeing your life's work finally unfold. If there's anything we can do to help, just let us know! Even if it's just about spreading the word around.
The best of luck with your endeavours!
-Fred
The best of luck with your endeavours!
-Fred
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